Four Months

I didn’t mean to be quite so negative in the last post. It isn’t that bad. OK, when Bryan was sick and I was sick, it was that bad, and he’s had some awful days, but otherwise we’ve been OK. Especially since I learned a trick to get him to eat nice when he’s cranky – squats while nursing. Sometimes when he’s real tired, that’ll knock him out. He looks chubbier, we’ll see how much weight he’s gained Friday.

The past couple of weeks have been better. Owen is really starting to develop a little personality and can go long stretches without a meltdown. He was even socializing with my parents the other day rather than screaming at the top of his lungs. He smiles a lot more now, tries to communicate in ways other than crying. He effectively “told” me his diaper was dirty this morning and seemed to understand when I asked “do you need your diapy changed?” He likes to do sit-ups and when we tickle him, even though he’s not ticklish. He loves looking at computer screens and seemed to recognize his picture (my wallpaper).

I just wish he would sleep. He’ll do a seven hour stretch or a five hour stretch one night and then wake up every hour the next night. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to the pattern. Better naps do not seem to mean better nighttime sleep. If anything, when he naps well during the day, he wants to stay up later.

Work’s been pretty good. Learning the code. It’s so readable, it’s amazing. Cleanest code ever. The team seems friendly and helpful. Looking forward to actually contributing.



Rough Start to the Year

It’s been a tough couple of weeks. Really, we can’t believe it’s only been a couple of weeks. Owen has been super fussy during the day and at least he was sleeping through the night, bit he’s not anymore! Bryan was sleeping with him in the basement, but he got sick, so I took over a few days. We decided to move him to the bedroom because neither of us was keen on sleeping down there. He never stays asleep the first time I put him down though, so I’ve been sleeping with him on his crib mattress on the floor :-/ it’s about as comfortable as it sounds. And he still much rather sleep with me in the chair. Me too baby, me too. Chair’s more dangerous though. Oh yeah, then I was sick. Not long, but it was the first sick day I ever took.
At his last Dr appt, Owen hadn’t gained quite enough weight, so I’m almost glad he wakes up to feed more often now. We’ve also been giving him some bottles during the day, though it’s hard to balance that with making sure he’s still breastfeeding well do my milk supply doesn’t decrease even more. He’s very impatient.
We saw the lactation consultant again who insisted his tongue tie reattached. The dentist basically told us she’s crazy, that can’t happen. Wherever, didn’t want to put him through that procedure again anyways. Just frustrating when there’s no clear cut answer. As a control freak, this dives me crazy.
So yeah, things have been a little rough. On top of all that, I actually have to work and breastfeed and pump after I breastfeed while working but staying relaxed so the milk will flow. This is why people give their babies formula.



New Years Past

Every year before the new year begins, I look back at past recorded years. Earlier entries have been edited for length. Current year’s at the bottom if you want to skip to that.

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A Look Back at 2014

My year end summary isn’t going to be as detailed as usual, but most of my blogs were about my pregnancy or Owen anyway.

January: hosted a small dinner party, found out I was pregnant, gave a great toastmasters speech about the day I met Jerry on TRL, threw a bridal shower for Nitika, snowed

February: won my first prize from a blog giveaway and it didn’t fit at all, snowed some more, had our first ultrasound, had dinner with Bryan’s family a couple times

March: went to Disney which wasn’t as much fun pregnant though fastpass+ planning was, waited forever to meet Anna and Elsa, welcomed Lyra into the world

April: another ultrasound, I could eat again, Merzia announces her pregnancy

May: we welcome Noel to the family, another ultrasound: it’s a boy!

June: enjoyed the second trimester, small family reunion at Nana’s, setup my home office

July: had the downstairs bathroom done, pj party at Ellen’s, Bryan’s parents have us nursery furniture

August: participated in two hackathons, didn’t win anything, had the family baby shower, Julia took maternity photos, saw Owen’s fringe on the ultrasound and that he was breech, received a summons for jury duty and got out of it, Bryan’s tiny birthday party, friends baby shower

September: work baby shower, got almost everything from our registries, baby no longer breech, welcomed Owen Edward to the world after having contractions for days :p

October: spent a lot of money to make sure breastfeeding went ok, enjoyed being a new mom, liked the cloth diapers, Owen had an eye infection, we dressed as batmommy and batbaby for Halloween

November: Owen started social smiling, he could roll over, he stated to like baths, he started cooing, smiled and cooed at the pooh art above his changing table

December: he made laughing squeals, took him to the EOY party at work, the mall, Grammy and Papi’s, and Cheryl and Yori’s shower, he stated grabbing toys and putting them in his mouth, he stated sleeping through the night, I went back to work, excellent Christmases full of good food


Twelve Weeks

Only a few more days with my sweet baby before I go back to work :(

We took him to the mall last week. He loved it! All the things! I think he gets bored at home sometimes. Such an ordeal taking him out though, especially since he’s the only baby who doesn’t love car rides. We did put on Christmas music on the way home from the mall which, combined with his exhaustion, lulled him into a sleep. Going to try taking him to Kohls maybe today.

He laughs and grabs at toys now. This morning we were playing with his giraffe and he was smiling! Speaking of smiles, this morning he was sleeping and I saw he kicked off his blanket. I went over to him and he was awake a looked very distressed. He saw me and flashed me the biggest smile :)

I also showed him his baby artwork book this morning which brought out an “oooooh.” And read him the story of the gingerbread man which he seemed to really enjoy.

Yesterday wasn’t as good. His reflux was bad and I couldn’t get him to nap. He sleeps really well at night, he’s been doing at least a five hour stretch every night, but naps have been tough. Ice been letting him sleep on me so he sleeps at all, but I really have to pee right now and my arm is asleep.



I actually prefer he wakes up once during the night, otherwise I need to get up and pump and the pump doesn’t put me back to sleep like he does :-/

New Year Survey 2014

1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before? … Gave birth
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Maryam and I did do two hackathons this year, go us! This year I want to do my best to balance work, family and my health. Keep learning new things at work, keep breastfeeding for a year or more and lose this baby weight.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Melanie, Melanie, Rae, me, Merzia, Carolynne
4. Did anyone close to you die? No, though friends of mine had a few tough losses
5. What countries did you visit? None
6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014? A hoverboard
7. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 9/25, my Owen was born
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Creating a human
9. What was your biggest failure? Not winning the hackathons?
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Morning sickness
11. What was the best thing you bought? Cloth diapers
14. Where did most of your money go? Baby
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Baby and family/friends’ babies
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
l. happier or sadder? happier
ll. thinner or fatter? Fatter
lll. richer or poorer? richer, barely
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Hydrating
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Can’t think of anything
20. How will you be spending Christmas? people are coming over here
24. What was your favorite TV program? Orange is the New Black
26. What was the best book you read? The Happiest Baby on the Block
28. What did you want and get? Owen
29. What did you want and not get? My disability money from the state… It’s coming I’m sure
30. What was your favorite film of this year? The second hunger games was this year, right?
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? turned 29, had a party at our house, played Cards Against Humanity
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? a better project
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014? Maternity clothes, whatever fits
34. What kept you sane? Bryan
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
37. Who did you miss? Everyone
38. Who was the best new person you met? Owen
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014: Being a mommy is pretty awesome
41. Summarize 2014: babies
42. What are you most looking forward to next year? Watching Owen grow
43. What were your predictions last year? Many new babies, I’ve mostly left Ruby, it did snow and I would have visited Seattle if I weren’t pregnant
44. What are your predictions for 2015: Sneakers will lace themselves, cars will fly, the justice system will work swiftly now that they’ve abolished all lawyers… My new assignment will be awesome, Owen will sleep through the night

Ten Weeks

He changes so much every day. I took him to work on Wednesday and he was so good. He hardly fussed at all. He was so interested in all the things and was smiling at people. Since then he seems to have his days and nights pretty much straightened out, though I’m not really getting more sleep since he has his long sleep early.

It’s ok, he’s adorable. He smiled at his reflection today and squealed with delight at his Pooh art while I was changing his diaper. He was making funny faces with grandma yesterday :) He’s also more into toys and will grab at them now.





Two Months

I know I just wrote an 8 week post, but last night, he did the cutest thing. I was feeding him and he was starting at me. I told him I loved him and he made the sweetest noise, I swear, like he was trying to say it back. Then I melted and smiled and he gave back the happiest gummy smile. Oh my gosh. I’m loving every minute with him. Less than a month until I go back to work :(

Comparison pics: one week, one month, two months



8 Weeks

What???? Really? Time is going by much too quickly. He’ll be two months old in a few days. He’s suddenly turned into a light sleeper. He wakes up when I try and transfer Jim to the rock ‘n play and if he doesn’t wake up, he will twenty minutes later. Then he also sleeps for long stretches and then eats an amount of food after. Really, I can’t believe his stomach is that big and even more amazing, my books make that much milk.

Pumping has gotten a little better. I’m now getting an average of 2.5oz a day. Enough to build up a supply. If he wants to eat all day, I just pump on one side while he eats from the other. This morning, he’s sleeping, so I got it all in one, easy shot.

He’s sleeping, I should really be cleaning or something…

He coos a lot. He love the pictures above his changing table and will tell you about it or that he has a poppie diaper.



Six weeks

How do women do back to working after only six weeks? We are so backwards in this country when it comes to maternity leave. Speaking of other countries and the awesome people that live there, my Canadian buddy, Carolynne just welcome her little girl into the world, congrats!

So, six weeks. Owen started social smiling which is just about the cutest thing ever. He’s imitating faces too and gets a kick out of it when he sticks his tongue out and then I do it. He’s also a very cranky baby. Fourth trimester, gas, sleepiness, who knows, but there’s no problem that can’t be solved by the boob. No idea what will happen when I go back to work. Pumping is still a problem, mostly because he eats all day. He’s finally sleeping now, so I’m pumping as I write this.

What else… He can roll over onto his back sometimes. He didn’t cry when we gave him a bath yesterday. I think he liked the fact he had an audience. He likes to entertain.

He has blocked tear ducts and developed a but of an eye infection last week’s, but he got drops and now he’s all better. Poor little guy, he’s had jaundice, reflux, baby acne, blocked tear ducts. At least all minor stuff. No wonder he’s so cranky though.