{"id":3309,"date":"2011-05-01T10:02:49","date_gmt":"2011-05-01T14:02:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/blog\/?p=3309"},"modified":"2011-05-01T10:02:49","modified_gmt":"2011-05-01T14:02:49","slug":"i-hate-sleep","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/?p=3309","title":{"rendered":"I Hate Sleep"},"content":{"rendered":"

I can control most other aspects of my life, but sleep owns me. It doesn’t matter if I’m tired, completely exhausted, cold, hot, cranky, sick, excited … I sleep, I don’t sleep. And it doesn’t matter what time I go to bed or how tired I am, Mr Sun gently wakes me up, bright and early, every morning before my alarm clock does. That’s why I started getting up early to exercise. If I’m awake anyway, right? <\/p>\n

But this is nothing new. I’ve always had trouble with sleep. Some of my earliest memories are of being wide awake at nap time. I had a really hard time in elementary school a lot of nights. Eventually I learned tricks that helped me fall asleep, but sometimes my mind is so busy or I’m so tired, I just can’t focus enough to use them. <\/p>\n

After drafting an email in my head about our wedding video that we still don’t have, after thinking about how much more I like dogs than babies, after a quality fight with Bryan, after five bathroom breaks, I finally fell asleep. Then Mr Sun came up. I said fuck off, but he persisted. The longer I was lying, thinking about nothing, the more awake I became. I finally got up around 8, but I was too tired to stand. I let my body rest for another half an hour and by that time, my brain was completely awake and writing this blog post.<\/p>\n

It didn’t help that dinner took hours last night. Easiest soup in the world my ass!<\/a> Any soup that involves peeling and chopping butternut squash is not easy. Plus I has to call Roy in the middle of my chopping which slowed me down. Even with Bryan’s help, that alone took like an hour. Then I had to chop apples and mince garlic and then cook the damn soup. The glass cracked on the blender, soup went everywhere. End result: good, but so not worth the effort. It was 9 by the time I finished.<\/p>\n

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Happy things yesterday: I finally met Brian’s daughter, Natalie. I was kinda hoping her super cuteness would get me all excited for the having a baby thing, nope. I still don’t get nearly as excited about babies as I do dogs, or, ya know, ice cream. I don’t dislike babies or kids. I enjoy hearing stories about the cute things they do, seeing pictures, watching videos, but I prefer the company of dogs .. or ice cream. I assume that when I actually have a baby, that’ll change, but it’s hard to get to that point when you don’t really want one badly enough to do something about it.<\/p>\n

We also went to Pier 1 yesterday and picked out some furniture. We couldn’t buy it because it wouldn’t fit in our car, but it shouldn’t be a problem once I get my new car. In the meantime, I opened up a credit card to save some money and because the sales lady was super nice and helpful. <\/p>\n

Off to eat my chocolatey breakfast and read all of your blogs :)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I can control most other aspects of my life, but sleep owns me. It doesn’t matter if I’m tired, completely exhausted, cold, hot, cranky, sick, excited … I sleep, I don’t sleep. And it doesn’t matter what time I go to bed or how tired I am, Mr Sun gently wakes me up, bright and […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3309","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8bQP0-Rn","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3309","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3309"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3309\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3311,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3309\/revisions\/3311"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3309"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3309"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/silvercpu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3309"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}