Saying Goodbye to Papi

Saying Goodbye to Papi

My father-in-law passed away suddenly on the 13th.

Jack was the best. When Bryan lists out the best qualities he brings to our relationship, Lyn and Jack are always come up. He was always there to help us and support us. We’re “adults,” but I feel like there was still so much he was teaching us about being grownups. He helped us buy our house and paint the nursery. He was the first one at the hospital to meet Owen. Sharing a Klondike with Papi had been a highlight of Owen’s visits lately. They loved each other so much.

We were on line to meet Chewbacca in Disney when we heard. Some kind cast members took us aside and let us compose ourselves. It was a complete shock because he was in very good health. I’ll make a separate post about Disney. I wish Papi could have seen all the pictures, he would have loved them. I can’t bring myself to post anything on Facebook. It makes me so sad that he won’t be liking anything anymore.

His service was nice. Even though there was a fucking snow storm, because the universe can’t give my mother-in-law a break, plenty of people still came. Bryan and Chris spoke and Rae sang. I was supposed to sing but my cold took my voice from me. I think I was better off, I don’t think I would have made it through a whole song. It was harder than I thought it would be. Watching the kids trying to make sense of what happened really got to me. I think they know he’s gone, I’ve read they don’t really understand it’s forever at this age though.

Owen keeps saying, “I miss Papi. Papi is gone. Papi’s not go home. Papi is sleeping.” He’s been a little aggressive lately and I think, maybe because he doesn’t understand his feelings. I told him it’s OK to feel sad and angry. It’s also OK to feel happy at the same time, because happy things happen even when you’re sad.

2 Responses

  1. Oh this post makes me so sad. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s so tragic. Especially the part about how the kids deal with it. Such a hard thing to deal with. Im sending you lots of love ❤️